We had kinda ventured into the idea of buying a house again and even found a couple that we really liked, but either need WAY too much work done or we just simply didn't like the feeling we had. On that note we ended the search for a house and thought about looking at other places to rent that were slightly bigger, but so far no such luck.... we will just have to see what happens here in the next couple weeks to come.
I work 7 days a week now so when Josh and I have time together we usually try and spend it that way without distraction.... here recently it has been an hour here 30 minutes there. I just wish we had some good quality time together and hopefully that will happen soon.
A lot of you know that Josh and I are having our problems trying to have a baby, but it is still early on in the game. I have a doctors appointment in October and we will be discussing options. I am nervous/excited/scared. I just want it to be here so we know what to plan. Also hence the decision to start looking for a bigger place just in case it were to happen.
I feel so incredibly blessed to have such a wonderful husband. He treats me like a princess! I am blessed to have a great place to live, two full of energy puppies, 2 working cars, a great job and to be healthy. I see some of my friends on Facebook post things and I think... "Wow I am glad I don't have to walk to work." or "Wow I am glad I don't have to deal with the dramas of break ups and make ups." I truly am grateful for everything I have, yea sometimes I might want more and I try not to be selfish but it is hard.
My life is not all roses though. I have to constantly clean up after our unpotty trained yorkie, I wish more than anything in this world it would be easy for Josh and I to have a baby and in the last week I think Josh and I only spent maybe 10 hours together. There were three days in a row where the only time I saw him was the 3 minutes I was telling him goodbye in the morning. I try and take the bad that comes along with the good even though it is hard.
Please don't think I am being selfish our childish. I don't want people to see me that way. I just want a place to post my feeling without the whole world on Facebook reading it whenever they want.
